Steady on

[allezhop]

I remember walking to school as a teenager and noticing an elderly man who watered his garden every morning at the exact time I passed by. I couldn’t imagine why anyone would be up that early if they didn’t have to. (I assumed a lot back then, but that’s sixteen for you.) Now, I’ve become that person. On my days off, I wake up before dawn to enjoy my routines and get everything done before lunch so I can laze about all afternoon.

(I don’t know if that man ever lazed about, but I certainly do.)

I don’t really celebrate holidays anymore. Since I’m usually desperate for downtime and a break from being around people, I’ve created my own solo traditions - like a Harry Potter marathon - and specific foods that I love. I’m content. In the back of my mind, I know there is always the option to start new traditions with friends who also don’t have local family if I ever crave human contact. So far, though, that hasn't been the case.

Yesterday, I made progress on my next video by recording the audio and adding the images. I’m not entirely happy with the audio, though; it dropped out in a few spots early on, likely because of how I set the noise filter. I might re-record it today, or I might just let it be. I want to create quality content, but letting go of perfectionism is often the only way I can create anything at all. It’s a hard balance to find.

In the afternoon, I spent a lot of time reading and did a DIY version of a vibroacoustic bed at home. I used a vibrating pad and binaural beats; they weren't synced the way a professional sound bed would be, but it was still deeply relaxing and meditative. (I incorporate meditation and self-hypnosis to all of these sessions.) I also watched Resident Alien. The end of season two is an improvement, but I’ve heard the final two seasons are very short. It’s a shame it didn't maintain the same excellent blend of comedy and characterization of the first season, but oh well.

So far today, I’ve finished my morning routine, done some gentle yoga, and taken out the trash. I tidied the kitchen a little, too. I still need to vacuum upstairs, but I’ll save that for later in the morning so I'm not being a terrible neighbor.

It’s a rainy day, so I’m tempted to just read all morning, but I think I’ll compromise by working on my video from the comfort of my bed.

Comments

[maju]

I like to structure my days like yours - get up early, get everything necessary done in the morning, and laze around in the afternoon.

[allezhop]

It's so satisfying, isn't it? I definitely used to procrastinate, and the weight of the undone would weigh on me all day. It feels so good to get All the Things done first!

[maju]

Yes, I really dislike the feeling of things to be done hanging over me if I don't get them done early in the day.